Back to the Wild

I have made my decision to go back to the wild with Derek Holtzer. It seems so crazy and I know that. Why would I go back to the wilderness to die. I feel like a guinea pig being observed for psychological tics. I know my thoughts are all over the places, but I have a feeling of remorse and putting my thoughts on paper helps. Derek offered money but I know money can’t fix the psychological damage but, I may help someone with this research.